The local library was full of avid fans eagerly awaiting to meet Kyle Stevens the author of the latest Crimson Blade Novel Series. The line weaved out and around the library's entrance. As Kyle sat there staring at the line he awaited the next fan to approach his little desk.
Mr. Stevens this book is by far my favorite, the cliffhanger at the end of chapter twenty three made me not want to stop! The scrawny teenage girl pushed up her glasses with a single slender finger as Kyle opened the front cover.
So who should I make this out to? He readied his pen awaiting her response.
I don't know just Kimberly Wills I guess.
Kyle signed yet another name, at this point if he wasn't already, he was now a pro at signing his name. As the next few fans came and left he couldn't help but wonder to himself.
(Was this it? Was all my time in college, my numerous classes that all cost me a fortune, and my career as a writer, was all this the only thing I have to show for it? I know making a name and making money is good an all but is this it?)
The next fan came up to him, Kyle I am so glad to have finally meet you.
(Kyle, so we're on a first name basis huh?)
I have read all of your books even the ones that aren't that good –
(jeez thanks)
– and even the short stories and poems that were posted in the paper. I just have to say even though the first Crimson Blade was the best this one was still a great installment!
Well I'm glad I could deliver, so who should I make this one out to?
To your number one fan, Craig Higgins.
(Number one huh?) that was about the fiftieth “Number One Fan” he had signed that day alone.
The line died down and the library's staff were removing the desk, cardboard cut outs and other promotional objects. Kyle was ready to go and as he was about to leave a man entered the library.
Kyle hey so how was the signing?
Hey Nelson, it was you know, the same old same old.
Nelson was a childhood friend he met in elementary school. It was tradition for them to get coffee at the local coffee shop after a signing.
You ready?
Yeah I'll meet ya there.
The two were sitting at their usual table, So you get your usual?Nelson took another sip of his coffee.
You know me, I have a usual at every place we go.
So you have anymore on the next novel done?
Not really, nothing has come to me yet.
Hitting one of those ruts again?
Yeah I've been hitting those a lot lately huh?
Well I hope it doesn't affect ya too much.
Later that night Kyle was in his studio trying to get working on his book again. Anything, a page even a paragraph would be nice at this point.
(Damn it this is getting ridiculous, what is it that makes me feel this way? Being uncreative is one thing but it's this gut wrenching feeling I keep feeling, and no matter what it won't go away).
A loud song began to play and it took Kyle a few seconds to realize it was his cell phone before he fumbled through the clutter on his desk to retrieve his phone.
Yellow!
Don't address me so rudely say it right.
Grandma it's you, I'm sorry, hello how are you?
I'm doing fine I was calling to see how your book signing went that and you never call me.
Sorry Grandma you know I'm usually pretty –
I know I know, busy right? But too busy to call your dear ol' Grandmother?
I know I'm sorry, well the signing went ok, it was the usual.
You doing ok?
Yeah, Kyle sighed not really meaning what he said.
What's wrong?
Nothing why do you think something is wrong?
Cause I may not be your mother but I am a mother and I know what it sounds like when you aren't telling me the truth.
Well I sort of been getting in these odd ruts lately.
Like with your book?
Well not just with the book but with life and whatnot.
Well you know you wouldn't be in those ruts if you'd just find a good woman and settle down already.
I know Grandma, some day maybe. He said knowing full well it wasn't going to happen.
Well you know I'm just lookin' out for you.
I know, you always have, and I appreciate it.
Well I got to go I'll talk to you later, love you.
Love you too Grandma, bye.
Kyle hung up the phone and just sat there, what is this feeling? What is it that's missing in my life? I got a good family, good friends a nice career, so what is it?
Kyle abandoned his work, he had sunk too far into his rut. He got on the internet and Googled “Something missing in my life.” Let's see, “Something Missing meet the right person today.” I think the internet is in cahoots with my Grandma. He joked and continued to look at the following results. “Is there something missing in your life, fill that void in your life with God.” God huh, well I know that's not it.
After a plethora of Google results, none really calling out to him, Kyle decided to check his e-mail. Hmmm 1,000 e-mails let's see, crazy fan junk, do you need birth control spam, Kyle I'm your true love junk, how dare you kill off... junk, junk, junk and yep another one junk mail. One after another he sent one message after the other to the trash bin. Alright let's see this one ju– wait. Something about the next e-mail caught him, he didn't know why but he opened it and read the e-mail.
Dear Mr. Stevens,
My name is Chad Winters and I am a big fan of your work. I recently began to read your latest novel and I have to say it is the best so far. However, this isn't the reason I am mailing you, the reason is this; I would rather wish to meet you. I am a writer myself but never got the nerve to publish any of my works. I was wondering if you could read over a few of my works and see if they were worthy of publishing.
Your Fan, Chad Winters